In The Rain

So this is what it's like to walk with someone under an umbrella in the rain, making lame but somehow funny jokes while me complaining my wet velvet shoes which I love so much. The shoes I mean.

Koi ga setsunai.. 

Yvonne..

Charice

What I see, is a kid trying to act like an adult.

Sure, she sings good. And able to mimic big singers' voices.

But singing the songs as perfect as how it is performed by the predecessors is relatively easy rather than CREATING the perfect conveyance yourself.

Part of the reason why big songs are so touching is because the emotions are real.

In a few years, we shall see her "transformation" into a skinny, fully make-upped 24/7, perfect model, and as I like to put it, a regular entertainment's-next-new-money-tree.

Sigh. Young generations these days grow up so fast. The kids don't play paper dolls anymore, instead they watch Glee and admire people from High School Musicals.

Omg I sound so old already. Wth I am old already.

Yvonne..

Uneasy

I hate it when things are not in my control.

That's when I start to lose it. Or give up. Or walk away.

Which is why I usually follow up on everything I do, to the extent that it's annoying EVEN to myself, just so I won't end up in a shitty situation, at the bottom of the pit or something.

Even if I know that the car is going to crash into a wall, as long as my hands are on the steering wheel, and my pedals are working, I know that it's going to be fine.

But I know not all things are perfect.

That's when I feel uneasy. And nothing I do can ever calm my uneasiness. It has to be an outside influence to calm this feeling.

And I am not, a people's person.

Yvonne..

Wrong

Something is VERY wrong with blogger.

Can you guys my fellow bloggers tell me which are you using: Updated Editor or Old Editor?

(You can choose this option in the "Basic" tab under your Settings for the blog)

I'm still using the Old Editor, as I prefer it better, but I find that the image placeholding function is kinda f-ed up.

Before the UPDATED editor comes in, I can move the image wherever I want to in the post and when it's published, you can still click on it to get a larger image.

Now, I can't. If I want that function, I need to get all the pictures on top of the posts. Or deal with the troublesome html.

Gah I don't know if you guys even get what I'm talking about.

I'm probably going mad.

And I'm tired. And today's the LAST DAY of my holiday before hell starts. Sigh.

Anime, at times like this, you keep me going.

Yvonne..

Choked

That's what I nearly did, on the green tea that I'm sipping, when I saw someone named usui102 is following me.

On my twitter.

Did he not realize, that he has the same name as that hot guy featuring in Kaichou wa Maid-sama!???

I think he followed me after I updated twitter with "♥♥♥ USUI ♥♥♥". Um, tough luck pal, but you may notice that people have been saying Usui a lot lately due to a certain popular anime?

Anyway, his twitter is FILLED with Japanese, which I'm only in a beginner class learning it, so I don't really have any idea who he is at all. I tried reading some updates, but I can't get the whole picture.

Lol. Sorry Usui, the one I'm in love with is, I'm sad to say, a fictional character.

Yvonne..

P.S. And he actually REPLIED my green tea tweet! And then he updated his twitter with something about working hard writing in English!! LOL!!

P.P.S. Why is it that I'm so PATHETIC when it comes to conversation in Japanese?? orz

Now,

I'm relaxing with my green tea, doing my things online, while chatting with one or two friends enjoyably.

While suffering severe muscle pain ALL OVER my body.

Due to the fact that yesterday, I had another de-clutter my room session again. Last time was about 6 months ago, this one.

Except that this time, I didn't find dust rolled into a cylindrical shape, instead of those cute little dust rolls, I found something even more exciting (yes I'm being sarcastic), which are

INSECT EGGS

hidden behind some of my stuffs (which had been there for about 10 years or so I guess, I couldn't really remember).

DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT ask me WHAT insect eggs are those, because I SHUDDER to even think about the eggs. All I did, the moment I saw those bloodygoddamned eggs, is to SUCK THE HELL UP with my lovely, trusty, god-bless-them vacuum cleaner. Without thinking much about it. So yeah that's how I cleared the bloody things.

My operation was pretty simple actually. I set out, at 3pm, to clear and chuck two three-boxed colour boxes which is situated above my TINY closet. At the same time I dig out all my paperbacks and relocate them into my glass cabinet which is a new furniture I have.

Apparently I kept USELESS things from 13 years ago. Things like unmarked homeworks. From my FIRST GRADE.

It seems like I'm a very sentimental person after all eh? Sadly I can't find any love notes since 13 years ago. I wonder where I hid them instead.

Just kidding, ugly people like me don't have love notes from cute boys when I was 7.

Anyway, I finished clearing up my stuff, and the insect eggs, at 2am.

Yes, that's 11 hours of hard work and labour for me. I went to bed, shit tired, after watching the Portugal-Spain game on live (Ha! Now where's the advertisement star Ronaldo's going to hide his face??), at 4 something am.

Then, today morning, I woke up in a dead person's body. Totally petrified, like how people got "petrificus totalus!" (yes I still remember that damn spell from Harry Potter), but instead of the regular Petrification spell, this is something even nicer, which came with severe MUSCLE PAIN and inability to even get out of my bed.

But in the end of course I struggled out of my bed and moved my body in great pain.

And when I grumbled about it to my dad, he replied cheerfully with a "this is what you get for clearing your stuff every 10 years".

If he finishes that with a wink, I swear I might strangle him with both my hands.

And now, I'm happily drinking my green tea, recounting my fascinating yesterday, which involves lovely insect eggs and muscle pains *shudders*

Yvonne..

Korean Heat Wave

I'm sorry to say that I feel utterly indifferent about it.

Maybe it's because it's within my nature to dislike overrated, or mainstreamed, or popular things. And unfortunately at this time of the year, it's about the Koreans. Korean boys, korean dramas, korean language, heck, even the korean team for FIFA world cup. EVERY-FREAKING-WHERE I go, there MUST be someone posting or fantasizing or display-photoing the koreans.

And don't you dare mention "Wonder Girls" or "Super Junior" in my face, and also "Nobody" or "SNSD" as well, cuz I might puke. Really, I will.

And it even adds to my negative perception about it even more when I discover the fact that,

To the Koreans, it's a norm to have PLASTIC SURGERY.

Yes. It's a norm.

So, if you have the free time to make the connection, joining-the-d0ts as we call it, the mainstream loves the Korean because they're pretty/handsome, and SOME (I said some not all so don't start counter-attacking me) of them have the desired effect all thanks to plastic surgery, so... in the end, who, or shall we say, WHAT, exactly are we actually liking?

That's right: The mainstream loves the beautiful face of PLASTIC SURGERY.

Also, it tells us that the society these days are into appearances in more vain ways than it ever could. Forget about morality, forget about warmth that makes relationships sparkle, forget about intelligence and talent, let us all place APPEARANCE in the center of the stage, and all us sinners shall support it with all our heart and soul.

Oh, except me. You all can go on ahead.

I'm done letting out my thoughts.

And, please don't dislike me due to this post, dislike the fact that what I'm saying could be very true, as they say, "don't blame the messenger".

Yvonne..

A Resolution

I'm going to QUIT facebook games.

Just don't think it's gonna work, with a P level paper next sem AND audit paper (you know how I will die over audit paper) AND Japanese lessons.

Not to mention, I'm kinda (I said KINDA) fed up with them already, with GOOD reasons: all the collecting cute things in PS every single week BUT not having enough rooms to place them AND the things end up accumulating in the inventory and I got so mad at the inventory sorting system and--- And that RC, every week new dishes will be out AND a new ingredient every other fortnight AND this whole --- ARGH. BESIDES, my browsers are so friggin slow and Firefox always crashes (but I use Chrome now, the thing is just so faneffingtastic) and this adds on to my anxiety level which I am personally measuring everyday to see if I really am an OCD (and yes I am!! Whoppee! NOT).

Also, I'm beginning to pick up pace in anime (Alter Ego of Yvonne: AHA!! So THAT'S the real reason!!!).

So, I'm making a resolution: Starting today, I'm not gonna play facebook games.

And I mean it. Because I don't feel love for it anymore. Really. T_T.

Cheers to unlocking-social-games-handcuffs!!

Yvonne..

DREAD Again

In a few days, my college will be starting soon.

The cycle will resume back to: go to college, be intimidated by the knowledge opened up to me, be freaked out at the kind of things and the amount of it that I have to cram in WITHIN 5 months and sit for the exam of it in 6 months, go home, have meals, study a bit, feel lack of happiness in life, go online, entertain myself with animes and shows, realize that my assignment is not finished after I'm done, finish assignment, go to sleep.

Then the next day I will wake up feeling totally depressed all over again.

Oh yeah, it's going to be so much fun.

Btw, what is this that I heard about Kevjumba being on AMAZING RACE SEASON 17 WITH HIS DAD?????????????????

No. No. NOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Someone must've dreamt about it and spread the rumours on the web. That is so unreal.

But awesome. At the same time.

I got sort of excited. Yeah. And cannot wait to see the duo on AMAZING RACE.

Now, I have something to look forward to. Besides Japanese class every week :D

Yvonne..

P.S. I know you guys miss my Food posts. At least I miss them too. I'll try to get something up soon enough ok?

Maybe...

...it's time for me to do some self-reflection.

I thought, it's fine by just being myself but it seems like that is not important anymore.

It now certainly looks to me that, what people perceive of you is the most important.

Should I start being someone I really am not, in order to get back in there again?

I don't know.

I used to have a very strong sense of right and wrong but sometimes it gets so blurred. So very blurred.

Being 20, a quarter of the average age people lives to without any accident or sickness, I feel way worse than when I was 17 or younger, able to tell you right away what should you do in that circumstances, what should you not do, what is the best thing, and that kind of things. There are a lot of questions in my head which are not there when I was 17 and now no one can answer. Not even guidance of history or religion.

I wonder if it's just me. I do have the feeling that it's just me.

Self-reflection.

Yvonne..

Outburst: Kaichou wa Maid-sama!

Disclaimer: This is not a review, but an outburst by a girl who is now helplessly having hots for a certain guy in a certain anime.

USUI.

USUI.

USUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wait, let me settle my boiling, doki-doki feelings for him so that I can put my burning feelings into words.

Ok. Here goes:

HE IS THE HOTTEST MAN ON THE EARTH.

(for now)

AND THIS ANIME IS TO BE BLAMED. (suddenly blaming innocent anime out of the blue)

THIS ANIME---IS---*DESIGNED*---TO MAKE US---I.E. ANIME-FAN GIRLS---FALL IN LOVE WITH USUI.

Yes. Even me. The cool-headed one when it comes to anime. The unique-taste one when it comes to mainstream anime. The not-easily-fooled-by-good-looks-and-cool-demeanor girl.

Because.

He.

Is.

Just.

Simply.

SMOKIN' HOT.

Yes. There. I've said it. With no sense of covering it up or whatever. I am so in love with Usui.

Not because he's good looking, not because he's cool. I could get that from any other animes lying about in my lair.

Although yes those two points sort of counts to the big picture, you get what I mean. And that's not the point.

He's POSSESSIVE, and DOMINANT. That sort of brought the hot level to 70% now.

You know what made the level hit home? Go on, guess, go on.

GLASSES. DAMMIT.

I know, so pathetic right. Just one scene, from episode 11, at the last, when he wore that pair of glasses.

I instantly melted. Damn.

Let's hope it's not a permanent thing. I haven't seen episode 12 yet.

But I got a feeling I'm going to love him anyways ♥

And it's not just about Usui either. I like this anime a lot because FOR ONCE IN A GODDAMNNEDLIFETIME, there is no friggin whatever HAREM in it. And that's good. That's really good. Because once in a while, normal people like us deserve a normal, monogamous couple relationship that undergoes NORMAL jealousy, embarrassing times, shyness and so on.

In one good, I DARE say, this anime IS AS GOOD AS OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB.

Yeap. You read that right.

Dewa, minna-san, I've done my fangirling. Thank you for listening. You can all say "PATHETIC" to my face now and I will happily accept it. I am just too happy to say anything back now anyway =D

Yvonne..

Okay

I have officially changed my blog address.

I welcome you to Kaori's Kissaten.

Don't ask me "Who's Kaori?" - it's my Japanese name that got stuck in my head for a long time ever since I used a translator somewhere long time ago and I've been using it here and there on the net for a while now.

And kissaten is Japanese for a café. 

So, that being done, I will proceed to change my layout. I think that's going to take some time...

See ya my dear readers!! :D

Yvonne.. (Wait should I change this sign off name too? Um, no, heck it's my real name and besides it's already a tradition and besides I've done this for each and every post of my previous 600+ posts and now I'm NOT gonna change my signature too okay ------)