No, not the 15 minutes kind. I need a big break. Something like a 3 months to a year. I know to some of you it sounds funny, but I long to go on a self-searching trip. I yearn for it. I want to find back my old self. But at the same time I want to retain some parts of my current self...sigh, it's hard to be me.
If there's only one thing I can say about my tertiary education, I would say this, "It burned me out and I have no positive scholar-related memories in there." Yeah, that's coming from a person who always score flying colours in every exams or tests in her primary and secondary education. Now, the same song couldn't be sung. Call me weak but after all this, I will NEVER come back to the same field to further my studies. People say your college or uni years are supposed to be fun, but for me it's plain torture and almost meaningless, if it weren't for meeting people and making good friends and exploring things with them.
I think maybe I should talk to someone about this. These days the line "If I keep doing this I'll die very soon" keep popping into my head, consciously or unconsciously. It's saying something. Either I'm very exhausted or I really am going to die very soon.
Yvonne..
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