DREAD Again

In a few days, my college will be starting soon.

The cycle will resume back to: go to college, be intimidated by the knowledge opened up to me, be freaked out at the kind of things and the amount of it that I have to cram in WITHIN 5 months and sit for the exam of it in 6 months, go home, have meals, study a bit, feel lack of happiness in life, go online, entertain myself with animes and shows, realize that my assignment is not finished after I'm done, finish assignment, go to sleep.

Then the next day I will wake up feeling totally depressed all over again.

Oh yeah, it's going to be so much fun.

Btw, what is this that I heard about Kevjumba being on AMAZING RACE SEASON 17 WITH HIS DAD?????????????????

No. No. NOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Someone must've dreamt about it and spread the rumours on the web. That is so unreal.

But awesome. At the same time.

I got sort of excited. Yeah. And cannot wait to see the duo on AMAZING RACE.

Now, I have something to look forward to. Besides Japanese class every week :D

Yvonne..

P.S. I know you guys miss my Food posts. At least I miss them too. I'll try to get something up soon enough ok?

Maybe...

...it's time for me to do some self-reflection.

I thought, it's fine by just being myself but it seems like that is not important anymore.

It now certainly looks to me that, what people perceive of you is the most important.

Should I start being someone I really am not, in order to get back in there again?

I don't know.

I used to have a very strong sense of right and wrong but sometimes it gets so blurred. So very blurred.

Being 20, a quarter of the average age people lives to without any accident or sickness, I feel way worse than when I was 17 or younger, able to tell you right away what should you do in that circumstances, what should you not do, what is the best thing, and that kind of things. There are a lot of questions in my head which are not there when I was 17 and now no one can answer. Not even guidance of history or religion.

I wonder if it's just me. I do have the feeling that it's just me.

Self-reflection.

Yvonne..

Outburst: Kaichou wa Maid-sama!

Disclaimer: This is not a review, but an outburst by a girl who is now helplessly having hots for a certain guy in a certain anime.

USUI.

USUI.

USUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wait, let me settle my boiling, doki-doki feelings for him so that I can put my burning feelings into words.

Ok. Here goes:

HE IS THE HOTTEST MAN ON THE EARTH.

(for now)

AND THIS ANIME IS TO BE BLAMED. (suddenly blaming innocent anime out of the blue)

THIS ANIME---IS---*DESIGNED*---TO MAKE US---I.E. ANIME-FAN GIRLS---FALL IN LOVE WITH USUI.

Yes. Even me. The cool-headed one when it comes to anime. The unique-taste one when it comes to mainstream anime. The not-easily-fooled-by-good-looks-and-cool-demeanor girl.

Because.

He.

Is.

Just.

Simply.

SMOKIN' HOT.

Yes. There. I've said it. With no sense of covering it up or whatever. I am so in love with Usui.

Not because he's good looking, not because he's cool. I could get that from any other animes lying about in my lair.

Although yes those two points sort of counts to the big picture, you get what I mean. And that's not the point.

He's POSSESSIVE, and DOMINANT. That sort of brought the hot level to 70% now.

You know what made the level hit home? Go on, guess, go on.

GLASSES. DAMMIT.

I know, so pathetic right. Just one scene, from episode 11, at the last, when he wore that pair of glasses.

I instantly melted. Damn.

Let's hope it's not a permanent thing. I haven't seen episode 12 yet.

But I got a feeling I'm going to love him anyways ♥

And it's not just about Usui either. I like this anime a lot because FOR ONCE IN A GODDAMNNEDLIFETIME, there is no friggin whatever HAREM in it. And that's good. That's really good. Because once in a while, normal people like us deserve a normal, monogamous couple relationship that undergoes NORMAL jealousy, embarrassing times, shyness and so on.

In one good, I DARE say, this anime IS AS GOOD AS OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB.

Yeap. You read that right.

Dewa, minna-san, I've done my fangirling. Thank you for listening. You can all say "PATHETIC" to my face now and I will happily accept it. I am just too happy to say anything back now anyway =D

Yvonne..

Okay

I have officially changed my blog address.

I welcome you to Kaori's Kissaten.

Don't ask me "Who's Kaori?" - it's my Japanese name that got stuck in my head for a long time ever since I used a translator somewhere long time ago and I've been using it here and there on the net for a while now.

And kissaten is Japanese for a café. 

So, that being done, I will proceed to change my layout. I think that's going to take some time...

See ya my dear readers!! :D

Yvonne.. (Wait should I change this sign off name too? Um, no, heck it's my real name and besides it's already a tradition and besides I've done this for each and every post of my previous 600+ posts and now I'm NOT gonna change my signature too okay ------)

LOLWTF

This mail was sent to my mailbox:

Hello Dear,

My name is Jennifer I saw your profile when i was browssing, i decide to contact you for long term relationship hopeing that you will accept my request,if you accept my request ,please reply to my email address (*censoredincasesomeidiotsreply*@yahoo.com ) so that i will send you my photos and more about me,i believe we can make good friends,let distance not be a barrier but lets love connect,because love is a bridge connect far distance to be close

Yours Lovely

Jennifer

I laughed like never before at the bloody email. My first reaction was "WTF?" and in my opinion, whoever who created this mail hoping to fish some gold bachelors are a complete moron.

First of all, you DON'T decide to have a long-term r'ship with someone by looking their profile, unless you're a psycho goldfish. And oh by the way, while you're reading my profile, did you even bother to check the gender which says FEMALE? And secondly, "let distance not be a barrier but lets love connect"????????? AHAHAAHAAAAAAAA.

Mails like this can be so entertaining sometimes.

Yvonne..

FIREFOX PWNED!

I never thought that I'd say this, but man GOOGLE CHROME rocks like never before.

Let me tell you the feeling - It's like dumping your crappy jerk musician boyfriend (Mozilla Firefox) and marrying to a multi-millionaire who's handsome, your age, and has a sense of humour (Google Chrome).

Now, let me continue enjoying my "husband".

XD

Yvonne..

5 Centimeters Per Second

Also known as Byousoku 5 Centimeter in Japan. It's an anime movie which went on the screens a few years ago. If you wanna know the story, please click here.

After watching, my initial response was: WHY IN THE WORLD BEAUTIFUL STORIES ALWAYS HAVE BLOODY SAD ENDINGS?

Or should I say, why in the world beautiful relationships always do not end with "and the two of them live happily together ever after"?

And how the heck can Takaki LIVE loving Akari ALL THESE YEARS without flying to Akari's side and tells her how much he loves her and asks her to marry him and have kids with him and never leave his side ever again??? I mean, come on, it's not like Takaki lives a very wonderful life, being alone, working as a computer programmer, passing day by day like some soulless corpse. He would do SO MUCH BETTER by doing what I said there.

TAKAKI YOU SUPER BAKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tell you what, if I'm Akari I'd totally stop my wedding and leaves everything had I known what Takaki is going through.

ARGH!! Watching this kind of beautiful-yet-bloody-sad movie is very suffering for me!!!

ALTHOUGH, I have to say, the anime is SO BEAUTIFUL. As in the artwork, I mean. EVERY SINGLE FRAME is a pure masterpiece in itself and I tell you, this guy (as in the creator) is darn good in nature scenes, putting it in an anime perspective, it's just the ultimate eye candy for every anime addicts.

Though you must have enough maturity to understand the storyline cuz it's not that clear, at least to me in the 2nd, 3rd, or 4th episodes. The first was pretty clear though.

I knew about this anime from this Japanese film festival that I want to go so badly but in the end didn't cuz it's too damn far and I'm busy on the days the nice shows are showing.

But as always, I have ways to get what I want, when I want it ;)

Yvonne..

僕はまたあんなふうに誰か愛せるのかな

Just changed blog song.

I think I've been listening to this song for over 100 times within these 2 months.

月とナイフ (Tsuki no Naifu)

by スガ シカオ (Suga Shikao)

僕の言葉が足りないのなら

If my words are not enough for you

胸をナイフで裂いて　えぐり出してもいい

Cut my heart with a knife and rip it out

君の迷いと　言い訳ぐらい

Your excuses and hesitations -

ほんとは僕だって　気づいてたのさ

Really, even I noticed it

いつかまた　あんなふうに誰かを憎むのかな

Will I hate someone like that again?

だとしたら　もっともっと

If so, embrace me more and more

抱きしめて　トゲのように心に刺さればいい

Like a thorn piercing your heart,

あなたに　ずっとずっと　残ればいい

Let it remain in you, forever and forever...

今更何も　言わないけれど

From now on, it would be better not to say anything

君の言葉は全部　ウソでいいんだろう

For all your words are lies

こんな事ばかり繰り返してたら

If I repeat it over and over

僕の涙はいつか　月に届くだろう

Maybe someday, my tears will reach the moon

僕はまた　あんなふうに誰か愛せるのかな

Will I be able to love someone like that again?

その時は　きっときっと

When the time comes, surely, without a doubt,

かぐわしい　風のように時が流れればいい

I can move on like the fragrant wind flowing over time

いつまでもずっとずっと　続けばいい

Forever, always, continuing......

***

It's a simple song, with his raw voice and quite acoustic guitar background, but it seeps into my heart simple as it is.

Yvonne..

So Weird

Before you continue to read, let me INSIST that I don't mean to brag or anything like that.

Ok, here goes:

You all know I'm a total otaku right? With the net addict and stuff and all. So, one of my net activities include mingling around net forums. Big deal, I bet most of us signed up for one before. Now, the thing is, I often get comments like this (especially from strangers who're just starting to know me):

• Are you french?
• By any chance could you be from Canada? (Apparently I used some of Canadian slangs without even knowing it myself)

I'm kinda happy. Sort of. Teehee. But anyway they're probably just taking a wild guess and not like after some serious analysing.

But still.

:D

Yvonne..

Quick Update

Some of you might wanna know how was my FIRST Japanese class *eyes-shining-brightly*

First of all, I was late. Sort of. Luckily that time sensei (teacher) was taking down the attendance.

She introduced herself as Tanaka-sensei and started the class by teaching us numerals. No problem there.

There's about 18 students in my class, which means that all the seats were taken (yes the class's kinda small but actually the largest class compared to other classes there, if you get what I mean). Most of them are already working, including one or two housewives, 5 or 6 studying youngsters like me, and one uncle who looks very rock (long-haired, pierced ears and all).

It's a strange mixture but somehow I know we can get along just fine since everyone's quite enthusiastic to learn Japanese.

Tanaka-sensei was a very kind and patient lady, she never show any I'm-in-a-bad-mood faces and in that 2-hour class she managed to get us laughing quite a number of times. She's quite cute actually, not the hot-girl-cute kind but the personality-cute kind. I think she's married. She looks like she's in her 30s.

Although I already knew 95% of the stuff taught in class, but learning it again from a real Japanese teacher is really nice. Sort of gave me the confidence you know.

ANYWAY, I should be studying for my final exam which is JUST A WEEK AWAY.

So, when you hear from me again, I will be released from the grasps of exam-stress and free to talk and do whatever I want. Heehee. Sayonara!!

Yvonne..

Announcing......

Well, it's nothing big.......

It's just that......

I SIGNED UP

FOR

JAPANESE

CLASSES!!!

:D:D:D

Yes that big-ass font size is an indication of how HAPPY I am :):)

Mwahahahahahahaaa~~

After so many years since I've started watching anime, being utterly interested in the Japanese culture, after so many years of listening to Japanese music, my DREAM (relatively small as it is), for so long, is granted. Dear God, I love you.

Cho ureshiiiii yo~~~

*^_^*

Yvonne..

Venting, for the last time.

You know what kind of people I really look down upon?

People who fools around, thinking that they know what they're doing, creating oh-so-exciting dramas in their life, tagging along people who, really, have MUCH BETTER things to do than to act a part in their bloody dramas, AND THEN, chuck the people who got along in their dramas like some rubbish, after which they whistle and walk off as if they never did anything wrong to the victims.

Does this reminds you of someone you know of?

Seriously, what the heck is wrong with these people? Now that I know your modus operandi, you can be damn sure that I will be out of your life in no time. Thank you, but I'm fed up with your SELFISHNESS.

Yvonne..