Temporary Stalker LOL

I am a stalker now.

YES, NOW.

At this very moment.

Who am I stalking?

Someone ^O^.

OK fine, I'm having a crush on him.

Don't over-react you guys. So I have a crush, big deal.

And I am now slowly turning to my 11 o'clock to glance at him and see what he's doing. Every 30 seconds I think OMG.

I'm seriously a stalker now XD.

OK I think I should stop now. In case whoever's sitting beside me is actually his classmate and then I'm dead meat.

Ah, it's been some time since I have a full-blown crush all over again. After the chemically-attached-guys-deprieved years all this while in high school, I'm back on the game! Yeah!

But um, he's not in my class. That part is enough to drive me insane.

But although he's not in my class, I can go to somewhere and see him whenever I want because I think I kinda mastered his timetable in college already XDXDXDXD.

OK not the whole timetable, just a part of it *wink*.

OMS. Who's that girl sitting beside him now?

Oh whatever, guys like him, definitely got a girlfriend already.

Luckily I picked a spot somewhere behind him instead of a spot facing him (Yes I actually had the chance to do so ヾ(≧o≦)ノ ).

But you know just now out of the three times I passed him he looked at me for two times!! Doesn't that tell you something??

But I didn't return his glance ヾ(≧o≦)ノ !!! I just passed without meeting his eyes! WTH?!

WHY DIDN'T I RETURN HIS GLANCE AND SMILE?!?!?!?!

You see, this is what happens when I'm chemically attracted to someone.

I tend to be like this.

Instead of sending out the "Hey, I like you" vibes, I became the "Don't you even dare look at me because I have no interest in whoever else".

*Screws head into the wall*

And now he's studying with that girl.

I really hope that's not his girlfriend, please no.

Wait, what the hell am I wishing for??

I should wish, I really hope that he don't have a girlfriend.

Yeah, that's the correct one.

But I know that's such a stupid wish.

So what if he don't have a girlfriend? There's no way I can attract him anyway. Wth.

URGH!

But the feeling of liking someone is GOOD, = D.

I love it!

Yvonne is back to her old self, the relationship-loser-but-is-happy-of-it self.

Oh my god! Where he went?? He's not in his seat now!

Should I go and look around or something? XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD NO WAI.

Oh god, what am I doing? Writing a stalker's journal??

Hoshit.

I really should stop this before I go and see him accidentally-on-purpose every single day subconsciously.

Jeez.

Oh, he back in his seat now.

Wait, don't lean in that close to that girl!

Ah, better now.

Ok, just do your work, and don't talk to her.

YOU, girl in black, stop talking to him!

URGH!!!

Ok Yvonne, stop looking now, you need to finish your damned Moral assignment!

Ok, I'm officially signing this off.

No~~~ He's leaning in again.

Oh, not anymore.

OK I REALLY SHOULD STOP TYPING WHAT I THINK INTO THIS EVERY SINGLE SECOND.

OK.

OK.

I'm off.

Yvonne..

Tagged by Wing Yan XD~

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

1. If it was the last night on earth with your past, what would you do?
★ Look up to the starry sky with an open heart.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
★ Be a multimillionaire *totally straight-faced*.

3. Do you have a malicious mind and how bad does it goes?
★ Yes. It's very serious. I might do something really bad one day XD.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
★ Make more money with it. Then buy whatever I want =.=

5. Pretty but fat/Ugly but slim, which one would you prefer?
★ Neither. But I think I prefer Ugly but slim. Healthier this way.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
★ I think it's about the same.

7. Is there anyone that you've waited and how did it last?
★ About 3 years? I forgot XD.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
★ Hm, mope around for a bit then move on? What else can I do?

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
★ What sort of question is this?? Of course an actor =D!

10. Will you invite for ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
★ Hmm...I think so?

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
★ In a grave maybe (Don't panic la, I'm just saying one of the possibilities XD).

12. What's your fear?
★ Death of loved ones, dead insects, some insects, T5 paper, future, and so on.

13. Metaphorically speaking, what are the 5 things that keep you alive until now?
★ Parent's love, my computer, music, friend's support, and my own will I guess.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
★ Single and rich for sure.

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
★ Check my msn and mobile messages.

16. What kinda girlfriend/boyfriend do you think you are?
★ Indifferent, sometimes a bit too cold, sometimes a bit too emotional......=.=

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
★ It depends a lot on who that two people are ^^.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
★ No.

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
★ Being single rocks XDXDXD.

Tagged
1. Agnes
2. Poh Lin
3. Lei Ying
4. Sook Yee
5. Li Yin

Yvonne..

I'm in Japan?

I nearly thought that I'm in Japan when I saw this page on my screen as I go to Google. Nearly.

I wonder how can Google make this kind of mistake and automatically set our college as "in Japan"?

Usually I'm being redirected back to our country's Google, something that actually annoys me a lot.

Oh Japan! When can I really come?? XD

Yvonne..

New Lunch Item XD

Lately I "discovered" a (very good) lunch item that ANY cheese lovers would love.

Guess?

CHEESE BAKED RICE.

*Grins smugly*

Found this new lunch item at the restaurant (which is actually a bunch of random food stalls under a roof) named "Orange" by the locals. I have no idea what's its real name XD.

I'm sure some of you had cheese baked rice before, probably better, but I just wanna let you know how happy a fact this is, the prerogative of having cheese baked rice as lunch on any day that I like XD (okay maybe except for Saturday and Sunday, I think).

This is Cheese Baked Seafood Rice, with Italian Sauce. Don't wet your monitor XD.

Smooth-flowing cheese, fried rice, seafood - chunks of crabmeat stick, prawns, calamari, and a mini octopus, baked into perfection. And the best thing is that it's not really expensive = D

But before that I bought a drink as well. Iced lime juice with sour plum. What's a great meal without a great drink? XDXDXD

Icy cold Lime Juice with Sour Plum and Cheese Baked Seafood Rice. Ahh~~ XD

And now after the lunch here I am writing about the digesting food in my stomach now XD.

Oh I forgot to blog about the potato pie I had the other day. I bought it at a charity stall in my college last week and it was delicious. However it was slightly cold and I bet it's finger-licking good if it's burning hot right out from the oven.

Cute potato pie ^^

I know, I love to blog about food. And post pictures of food to make your stomach growls. But I just can't help it XDXDXD.

Yeah, I'm still internet-handicapped. Imagine, me, the internet addict, separated from it. I'll die any moment from now on. Seriously. Now I'm on the college's wifi network with my lappy. Not nice at all = (

Oh well, better than none. T.T

Yvonne..

Evaluation

I just learned a good theory.

If you're not sure whether you are truly interested in something/someone, try giving it up completely and see if you care about it.

If you think about it all the time and worried about what you gave up, Congratulations, you have found something you truly care about.

If you don't, you know what it means.

That means that you don't really give a damn about it already.

It's a very effective method, provided that you don't lie to yourself obviously.

Yvonne..

Move

Change of plan, I'm going to move and live with my aunts.

How long you might ask?

I'm not really sure myself.

But don't expect to see me go online all the time like now.

Now I can catch up with my animes and books and all.






I'm still thinking about changing course.

But I'm going to finish this semester first, and then I'll see how.

I think I'm more calmed now, and can think in a more rational way, but I'm surprised that I'm still thinking about changing course even though the emotional phase had passed.

So now I'm going to finish this semester, and see if I still wanna change course.

Yvonne..

Sometimes I still wonder...

Sometimes I still wonder, have I made the wrong decision?

Almost everyday since I chose my course, I ask myself the same damned questions over and over again without getting any answers for it.

What am I doing in Accounting?

Am I supposed to be doing Accounting?

Why did I choose this again?

Why do I feel so...empty sometimes?

Since when did I lose my motivation in my studies?

Why am I on the verge of failing for my papers?

Will I be happy being an accountant in the future?

If not Accounting, what else should I be doing then?

Why am I asking myself all these questions?

Will there ever be a correct decision?

Like this, over and over again, these questions float around in my head all the time, clouding my senses, disturbing my emotions.

There's a line I read in a book today:

"...But more often than not, the easy decisions are the wrong decisions..."

Is this a sign?

Can God just please come right out and TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH MY LIFE?

Can I get this privilege of knowing a sliver of my future from God?

Because I really, really NEED it.

These days I even lost my appetite to eat.

I'm putting food into my mouth just so I wouldn't get sick and worry my parents.

What the hell is this?

How come it seems like I'm the only one who's facing this problem??

What's wrong with me?

I really envy those who have a clear vision of what they want to do for their future.

No matter how tough life goes for them, they can overcome it because it's their passion and interest in life.

I have no idea that I'll come to this stage in my life. I never foresee this situation at all.

I wish that someone can tell me what should I do. I wish that someone who had been in this situation before can come out and tell me that it's OK, and tell me the right thing to do. I wish that someone can just give me some directions, guide or whatsoever.

If my life is a movie, I think the audience must be having a hearty laugh right now.

If I am someone else watching myself now, I must be laughing like hell and thinking how screwed up this girl is, 18, dreamless, direction-less, wandering, wasting time, stupid.

Sorry for having you guys listening to this, I know this isn't nice and pretty, I know it must be very vexing to read these kinda stuff, but if you did finish reading this I'm very grateful to you for hearing me out. I feel too suffocated and I need to let this out.

Should I take a turn in my life?

Yvonne..

Hehehe

Believe it or not, I pass by Starbucks everyday when I go to college.

Seriously, I'm not joking.

But of course, I can't step into it like what a normal New Yorker do every single day.

Why?

BECAUSE, it's ridiculously OVERPRICED.

If a Chocolate Cream Chip's like 2 or 3 bucks then I'll drop by at Starbucks every single day on my way to college LOL.

*Sobs sobs*

XDXDXD

Yvonne..

What The...

It is very unusual to see this number of people to be online at this time.

So many! People must be exceptionally free on a Tuesday night =.=

Usually it's just 20+ people online at that time.

Yvonne..

Burning Desire

You know, sometimes, I have this sudden burning desire to pack up a bag and go to travel around the world without planning at all.

With one or two friends perhaps.

Then I'll work a little bit during my travel so to earn my food...like maybe I'll be dishwasher for a day at the restaurant or something...

Then I'll walk and walk and sometimes I'll stop by at really beautiful places like Paris and overnight in the park for a few nights to feel Paris completely...

And perhaps one day I might even stop traveling if I can find my soul mate somewhere...=p..

But I do have the burning desire to do this...

Although I'm quite sure that I'll be missing my family like crazy if I ever do this...

But hey, a dream wouldn't hurt right? =)

Yvonne..

Life is a Road...

This song's the ending theme song from the animated Disney movie "Anastasia".

At the Beginning

by Richard Marx and Donna Lewis

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on....
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

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The song's nice in a plain way. Do check out the movie if you haven't watch it before.

Yvonne..

Tagged by Wing Yan XD

1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things / habits / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tag and list their names.
4. No tags back!


Start ---

1) I can sleep at any time, for any duration I want. [Fact]

2) I MUST wash my hands every night before I sleep. [Weird]

3) I tend to scare people away when I don't feel like talking. [Fact]

4) Sometimes when I'm really angry I'll suddenly laugh. [Weird]

5) I use "XD" at least once in every single MSN conversation I had. [Habit]

6) I find certain guy's crystal clear voice to be extremely sexy. [Weird]

7) I love criticizing food. [Habit]

8) I'm always having totally incredibly weird random dreams. [Weird]

9) I hate celery, antibiotics, Panadol, and Coke. [Fact]

10) I like to smell coffee, but I dislike drinking it. [Weird]

11) I love freedom as much as I love life. [Fact]

12) I tend to be super ultra cool and unable to talk properly while I'm with someone I really really like. [Weird]

13) J-Rock tells me that there is a wild and crazy side of me XD. [Fact]

14) I have this indescribable urge to squeeze whatever I think is extremely cute. [Weird]

15) I'm an internet addict. [Fact]


and the 10 person to be tagged is..
1) Yee Ching
2) Poh Lin
3) Lei Ying
4) Kohaku
5) Siew Lee
6) Xin Ying
7) Mei Syean
8) Agnes
9) Sook Yee
10) Felicia

Yvonne..