Giving

No one gets her a gift even though last week she hinted it to us --- except me. 

And I'm so very very glad that I did. Otherwise: how very sad!!!

It's one thing that no one gets you any gift because you never mention it, but it's really a heart-breaking thing to hint to the WHOLE CLASS, but no one gets you any gift. Which is why I never mention the coming of my birthdays to anyone, because in the event that if really, everyone forgets about it, at least I can console myself by telling my pathetic self: "oh don't worry, it's just that they don't know, that's all" which is all a lie, but really, it makes you feel better, even if you know it's a lie. 

Of course that's just IF. Therefore, I truly, from the bottom of my heart, am very grateful, to all my friends, who never forget to sms me at midnight, or drop me a wish anywhere, anytime, on each of my birthdays. 

By the way, I was talking about my Japanese teacher, whose birthday is on next Monday. 

I got her a photo frame, which I think, is never too many for anyone. I thought of getting her a bar of chocolate but I was afraid that she might be on a diet or is cocoa-intolerant or something (um yeah I derived that from the phrase lactose-intolerant). And besides, she might put the photo of us and her into that very frame. Later. When we do actually get around to take a photo. Who knows. 

It's a black frame, with swirly white flowers around the border and is made of glass. I kinda hope she likes black cuz she wears a black jacket to our EVERY single class. So I think she might like black. 

She looked really surprised and happy for my gift. And I'm almost as equally as elated as her. Recently I learned that:

Giving, is a good thing.

Not just from this event, but from things that happened lately. And that's a story, for another day :)

Yvonne..

Suki

You're always at the corner of my eyes, 

you're always on my mind, 

you're always the one I'd apply "What-if?"s to, 

you're hot, in my eyes, 

it's been some time since I start liking someone,

but I think this time, I'd like to like you longer, 

longer, 

longer, 

and I would never look at you directly, 

inquisitively, 
curiously,

or even flirtatiously, 

for fear that if there might be a girl, even remotely close to you;

for fear that if my gaze linger on you too long, you might notice;

for fear that if I ever had the nerves to talk to you, all the bubbles might break; 

for fear that if I ever had the words out of my mouth, the tension is over;

why can't I say the right things, like all other smooth operators, 

why can't I do the right things, and stop worrying what might happen, 

why can't I just react right, when you came so close behind me, 

that my heart almost-literally jumped out as I realized: 

you were there all the time without making a sound???

why do you have to dress in a way that it seems like only I find it hot?

why do you have to be such a geek that it seems like only I find it cute?

why do you have to look so... argh! 

and worst of all, why in the world that I sometimes found you staring at me??????

was that just me?

I think so. I dare not tell myself otherwise. 

It's been three times that we've talked, 

it's been two times that I've caught you looking at me, 

it's been damnit-how-many-times you're so near but we never talk? 

"I like you!" If only I could say that without fearing the consequences. 

I like liking someone. I also hate liking someone. 
Life is such a fantastic irony. 

Yvonne.. 

New Project

I want a major revamp on my room. Period. 

I've been following a "Pictures of your room" (which is sometimes mistakenly read as "Pictures of your mom" and set people off laughing) thread and man, some of these kids really have got their room (or should I say life) together so so so nicely. Not to say extravagant, but yeah nicely. Even small rooms, some managed to make things SO organized and still have rooms for display, it almost makes me cry and sob and feel very ashamed. You know, I'm THIS close to driving myself over to Ikea and start buying a whole room of new furnitures. 

I'm not saying that I hate everything in my room... but it's so... mismatched. Every piece of furniture in my room comes from a different place and a different time, to some people maybe it's very chic or something but nooooo it's super not. And I know I probably sound like a major spoiled brat for saying all those things up there, but I think I deserve some furniture changes after oh I don't know, living with them for nearly 20 years? 

Hey, I think I just found a perfect killer-line to convince my parents to see things my way :) I shall start flipping my Ikea catalogues. 

Yvonne..

Beautiful Opening

I dare say, this is one of the best anime openings I've seen throughout my entire anime history. 

The timing and the animation is so matching that I want to announce it husband and wife. 

Yes, one of the best. No doubt. 

Yvonne..

P.S. If you can wait, wait for the HD to load before you watch =D

100th

According to MyAnimeList, a useful online list tool specially for otakus like me to list down which animes I've watched and at the same time provide useful information on animes and run statistics on our animes, I've completed

100 animes
(click me if you wanna know which ones)

Medetashi medetashi!!

And okay, I know that's not such a big number, after all my target is 300, but reaching one third of it makes me just as happy. I did stop watching for some time due to the utter long-ness of Rurouni Kenshin. 

Anime otaku forever. Peace. 

Yvonne..

New Sem, New Subs, New Gangs

It's almost the same to me every sem.

Except that this sem, I think I'm kinda getting the gist of it. Hey, at least I don't hide at some deserted open-air stairwell whenever I get a break and sleep or eat or get some sunshine there. 

And okay, at least I have nice friends to chat with and get to know of this sem for nearly every subject but still, I miss my best best best best best best friends in the world. 

Now I know why I cried during my high school graduation (and btw I'm NOT a cheerleader). 

Anyway, this is just a post to let my dear friends know I'm not dead yet :)

But I AM busier than last sem, taking 3 papers with one being of one of the ultimate P papers so yeah, I'm super busy, and also super sleepy at most times whenever I'm at home, not studying or watching anime. Therefore I often find the bed more appealing than the power button on my computer and so, this is why I'm not online most of the time. And on Saturday I have Japanese class and on Sunday I have either a life or family-forced-functions or an exam to study for. 

Omg, I'm gonna miss the net. No wait, let me do it again. Omg, the net's gonna miss me. Bwahahahh. 

Yvonne..

P.S. SMS works faster with me than MSN these days...just so you guys know ;)

In The Rain

So this is what it's like to walk with someone under an umbrella in the rain, making lame but somehow funny jokes while me complaining my wet velvet shoes which I love so much. The shoes I mean.

Koi ga setsunai.. 

Yvonne..

Charice

What I see, is a kid trying to act like an adult.

Sure, she sings good. And able to mimic big singers' voices.

But singing the songs as perfect as how it is performed by the predecessors is relatively easy rather than CREATING the perfect conveyance yourself.

Part of the reason why big songs are so touching is because the emotions are real.

In a few years, we shall see her "transformation" into a skinny, fully make-upped 24/7, perfect model, and as I like to put it, a regular entertainment's-next-new-money-tree.

Sigh. Young generations these days grow up so fast. The kids don't play paper dolls anymore, instead they watch Glee and admire people from High School Musicals.

Omg I sound so old already. Wth I am old already.

Yvonne..

Uneasy

I hate it when things are not in my control.

That's when I start to lose it. Or give up. Or walk away.

Which is why I usually follow up on everything I do, to the extent that it's annoying EVEN to myself, just so I won't end up in a shitty situation, at the bottom of the pit or something.

Even if I know that the car is going to crash into a wall, as long as my hands are on the steering wheel, and my pedals are working, I know that it's going to be fine.

But I know not all things are perfect.

That's when I feel uneasy. And nothing I do can ever calm my uneasiness. It has to be an outside influence to calm this feeling.

And I am not, a people's person.

Yvonne..

Wrong

Something is VERY wrong with blogger.

Can you guys my fellow bloggers tell me which are you using: Updated Editor or Old Editor?

(You can choose this option in the "Basic" tab under your Settings for the blog)

I'm still using the Old Editor, as I prefer it better, but I find that the image placeholding function is kinda f-ed up.

Before the UPDATED editor comes in, I can move the image wherever I want to in the post and when it's published, you can still click on it to get a larger image.

Now, I can't. If I want that function, I need to get all the pictures on top of the posts. Or deal with the troublesome html.

Gah I don't know if you guys even get what I'm talking about.

I'm probably going mad.

And I'm tired. And today's the LAST DAY of my holiday before hell starts. Sigh.

Anime, at times like this, you keep me going.

Yvonne..

Choked

That's what I nearly did, on the green tea that I'm sipping, when I saw someone named usui102 is following me.

On my twitter.

Did he not realize, that he has the same name as that hot guy featuring in Kaichou wa Maid-sama!???

I think he followed me after I updated twitter with "♥♥♥ USUI ♥♥♥". Um, tough luck pal, but you may notice that people have been saying Usui a lot lately due to a certain popular anime?

Anyway, his twitter is FILLED with Japanese, which I'm only in a beginner class learning it, so I don't really have any idea who he is at all. I tried reading some updates, but I can't get the whole picture.

Lol. Sorry Usui, the one I'm in love with is, I'm sad to say, a fictional character.

Yvonne..

P.S. And he actually REPLIED my green tea tweet! And then he updated his twitter with something about working hard writing in English!! LOL!!

P.P.S. Why is it that I'm so PATHETIC when it comes to conversation in Japanese?? orz