My Feeling Now = LOW

And a little bit of angry as well.

You see, generally, I'm not a person who likes to complain and tell you how I hate my life. But this time, I'm definitely making an exception because for this week up until today, life sucks for me.

How suck it is? You might ask.

Well, take Monday for starters, my connection went busted and the ADSL light on my modem is blinking. I don't even know what caused it and this actually is what driving me mad because if I know what caused this I would've fix the problem myself if I have the ability to do so. So I called the person in charge and the person told me technicians will be coming over WITHIN two days. So I was like, Oh, ok then, I'll wait don't worry. So I spent the rest of the day drowning myself with anime and movies. And oh did I tell you that I have to revert to dial-up for connecting to the internet? Even viewing this particular blog of mine takes 5 minutes, that is, if you're willing to wait that long to view all the components in here.

And so I stepped into Tuesday. STILL, the damned technicians were not here yet. And I felt worse because I heard that I have to wait around one week for them. So much for efficiency. Even so, I tend to look out the window whenever some vehicle passed by, basically, I'm desperately hoping for them to come. I was even thinking of driving to the headquarter myself and INVITE them to come and FIX my problem which if I'm not mistaken wouldn't even take more than half an hour for them. Tuesday, 5p.m, I gave up waiting for technicians.

Ok I'll stop talking about the connection thing. What made me felt worse is that I'm coughing+sore throat+flu. How great is that? Not to mention thick phlegm clinging to my throat, irritating me to the max every waking second.

And also, I found out that once again, I've hurt/offended someone whom I thought that I was close to. Something is very wrong with me I think. Me being too honest/direct/speak whatever I wanted to when I'm talking to close friends is now somewhat a liability for me. So from now on, even though I'm close to someone, I'll continue to be formal and official and continue to wear my mask. I guess having this kind of things happened twice this year is a warning to me and I think this shattered my confidence to ever be close friends to anyone. I ought to know, I can only take off my mask when I'm with my family members.

So, today I called again since two days is up and the technicians were nowhere to be seen. Unsurprisingly, the woman asked me to wait till FIVE P.M. and see if the technicians are here yet. So I was like "So that means that if they're not here until 5 I'll have to call again tomorrow?" which she replied "YES" somewhat annoyingly in my opinion. I was practically restraining myself so that I wouldn't burst cursing whoever it is on the phone with me that time. I was that mad. I mean, DON'T PROMISE anyone anything when you know very well that you can't keep up to what you've promised. Jeez. So I slammed the phone down and wait again. And guess what? 5p.m. came and went and I can't see any technicians in view. GREAT.

This week is so not my week. Something is wrong with the stars and stuff. I'm pretty sure of it. Anyway, end of my angry ranting post. Thanks for listening.

Yvonne..